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Life Improves with an Idea for a Non-Profit

With PTSD symptoms disappearing or being less frequent, I began to enjoy everyday activities again. Unfortunately, enjoying life more also made me less appreciative of my job. A manager at the company could see I was no longer happy there, and since they were making budget cuts, they let me …

New Title

It’s common among well-known authors for them to have written three books before becoming financially successful with book sales. My first book (tongue in cheek), AlphaDog, Get The Bitch You Want still sells through Amazon and Kindle. I want to write a book about PTSD, but I want it to …

FasTrak’s Valentine’s Day Letter

I’ve heard a lot of complaining since moving to San Francisco. Maybe it’s the people I’m around. But then, I’ve noticed that relatively few drivers wave “thank you” when their cars are let in front. Very few people look up and say a greeting when passing by. And just as …

These Memories Never Go Away

Months have now passed without an anxiety attack or any generalized anxiety. I’ve had a couple of nightmares, but they were not related to 9-11. One would think that for someone recovering from PTSD that this would mean the memories would not return. But this is not so. I have …

Martin Luther King Day Ride

Martin Luther King Day 2015 Took the bike out for a ride to Alice’s Restaurant at the famous Four Corners where Route 35 and Highway 9 cross in Woodside, California. It’s been about 3 months since riding Gwen, my 2009 Triumph Street Triple. My job has been too taxing and …

Free books in NYC

In 2008, I was unable to keep a job longer than a week. My anxiety from PTSD was so high, I could barely complete a PowerPoint document for the advertising and media companies I had worked for for years. I took out a loan against my home equity and wrote …

Stress Manifested

I still have trouble sleeping. And I still cry easily. It seems that any stressor is enough to send me into a lost state. I feel tense but not anxious. I’m in New York City. My art studio building in Dumbo, Brooklyn, is going condo and my studio mates and …

End of the Tunnel?

Six weeks have passed since having any hypervigilance. Over five have passed since having anxiety. During these last several weeks, I’ve taken no gabapentin nor other anti-anxiety. The doctor warned that while on gabapentin, if I had any depression, to stop taking the medication. I had come to rely on …