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March 2016

Memory Troubles

It seems my memory is getting worse. I don’t know if it’s because I’m dissociated and not fully paying attention or if my working memory simply isn’t working well. Yesterday I nearly asked the same question twice within five minutes. I caught myself from asking a second time. At a …

How to Build a Neighborhood

I wrote this message on a survey about the apartment building where I live in San Francisco about why I am dissatisfied with “knowing and/or socializing with [my] neighbors”: It’s not the fault of the community as much as it’s the fault of this transient SF culture. My neighbors are …

Mental Blips

Research indicates that a brain with PTSD has structural differences from a brain without. I wonder about this while engaged in returning to a task at work. Except I can not return without taking steps to recall what I was doing. An incoming email interruption and quick reply resulted in …

Finding Triggers for Healing

In February, I went home to Brooklyn for about 9 days. My goal, aside from checking in with my roommate and her new family, was to find triggers to PTSD symptoms and tackle them using Sensory Emotional Regulation, aka TIPI, which I like to call the EDIT process: emotional difficulty …